i am extremely tipsy on merlot and i just watched sixth sense. my entire world is red and sad and excited. i can only manage a few sentences before i fall asleep happy.

i think of conner.

i kept typing in dairyland.com. don't go there, it's dumb.

jon and i were talking about kirk today. he's married now. i'm happy for him. he has things i'll never have. like a bruising sense of humor and an attitude about life which can keep him afloat in the thinnest of waters. i wish i had some of that. i sink.

i sink and i spin and i wallow.

and i sleep...