billy idol is playing half a mile from my apartment. like, right now. i've lost touch with all the friends i've had who could have gotten a laugh out of going with me. like so many things lately, i couldn't make myself go alone.

this not drinking and not smoking person.... it's not me. recently i've treated people harshly because of their addictions but i can hardly keep this up myself. i'm back at that point where i forget why i'm doing this.

there is a wolf inside of my brain.