2jumping on my humongous new floor-pillow.
3obsessing over my account balance. or lack thereof.
4making lists.
5avoiding food.
6staring.
7shivering.
8pretending that none of it ever happens.
please. deliver me from gin.
i said, "hey. i need to put this phone down. i need to slip down into this bath." and i need her to know that i can't always stay on the surface. i'm away dancing in the silence between songs. there's nothing i need except the knowledge that she has what i want.
we're moving down this road much too slowly, like our lives are intoxicated by too much time. i can't seem to get it going faster than yesterday.
it's my birthday. happy birthday, i.
(i'm not too cool for cute little e-cards)